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Name: Jenny/Jen
State: California
Metro: San Diego
Birthday: 10/8/1985
Interests: my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ - my heart's desire is to serve Him in all I say and do, people, working with kids and youth, missions, camp ministry, traveling, road trips, deep and genuine conversations, ALL water sports, running, hiking, camping, exploring and enjoying the great outdoors: beach, mountains, desert, adventure, rain, fall leaves, puddle jumping, public speaking, animals, art, photography, drawing, cartooning, creating and making things, colors, music, playing guitar, eating healthy, fuzzy sweaters, plaid, blue jeans, sandals, the sun on my face, unexpected hugs from behind, laughing until your face hurts, good friends, quality time, family, living and loving the precious life I have been given :)
Expertise: being who God created me to be!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art - Photography/Drawing
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  goofyjen9
Member Since:
4/2/2004
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| My life right now...
is about learning to hold everything with open hands...and to welcome things in with open arms...without fear or reservation.
This can be and is often so difficult.
Sometimes poetry says it best, with what words my head and heart cannot seem to find:
Ignorant before the heavens of my life,
I stand and gaze in wonder. Oh the vastness
of the stars. Their rising and descent. How still.
As if I didn't exist. Do I have any
share in this? Have I somehow dispensed with
their pure effect? Does my blood's ebb and flow
change with their changes? Let me put aside
every desire, every relationship
except this one, so that my heart grows used to
its farthest spaces. Better that it live
fully aware, in the terror of its stars, than
as if protected, soothed by what is near.
- Rainer Maria Rilke
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
- Robert Frost
"I'm gonna keep on hoping..." - Raul Midon | | |
| At 2:35 tomorrow afternoon I will be officially getting on a jet plane
destined for the magical land of India. I will be gone for a month,
returning on the 29th of July. I will be assisting in running various
children's camps in northeastern India in areas such as Siliguri,
Darjeeling, West Bengal, and Nepal. As I sit in my room anxiously
writing this little note to you all, I am nervous, my stomach already
fluttering with anticipation and uncertainty. I am excited and eager
for this adventure, yet unsure. There is so much unknown and
flexibility being asked, but I am accepting the challenge. I am full of
hopes and dreams yet trying to let go of any expectations. I am going
to the other side of the world and I am ready to greet this world with
open, observant eyes and a open heart to whatever the Lord brings
before me. I cannot wait.
Please keep me and my teammates
Brittany, Liz, and Ian in your prayers for these few specific things.
This is a new and big adventure for all of us in different ways:
- Unity and good communication
- Humility and a learning spirit
- Ability to release expectations
- Patience
- Discernment
- Adjustment to weather (it's monsoon season...yay rain!)
- For the heart of Jesus!
- also for Arun, the Indian native we are going to serve and work with
My
verse for the trip is Malachi 3:10 - "Bring the whole tithe into the
storehouse, so that there may be food in My house, and test Me now in
this," says the LORD of hosts, "if I will not open for you the windows
of heaven and pour out for you a blessing until it overflows."
I
believe that God will pour out more than I can imagine on this trip if
I willingly bring it all before him. He has blessed me so much already
- I eagerly await to see what is next. I am so filled with peace and
rest in Him regarding this trip. There are a million things I could be
doing this summer but I know, without a doubt, that I am in the center
of His will for where he wants me, right now. This trip is part of
something so much greater in my life. This trip...is only the beginning.
May you have a blessed summer basking in the love of your Savior! You will be in my thoughts and prayers! :)
Walking Hand in Hand with Jesus,
Jenny <>< | | |
| I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was
I used to be mad at you
A little on the hurt side too
But I'm not who I was
I found my way around
To forgiving you
Some time ago
But I never got to tell you so
I found us in a photograph
I saw me and I had to laugh
You know, I'm not who I was
You were there, you were right above me
And I wonder if you ever loved me
Just for who I was
When the pain came back again
Like a bitter friend
It was all that I could do
To keep myself from blaming you
I reckon it's a funny thing
I figured out I can sing
Now I'm not who I was
I write about love and such
Maybe 'cause I want it so much
I'm not who I was
I was thinking maybe I
I should let you know
I am not the same
But I never did forget your name
Hello
Well the thing I find most amazing
In amazing grace
Is the chance to give it out
Maybe that's what love is all about
I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was | | |
| Seattle...is quite lovely, especially when the sun comes out. I recommend you all visit it sometime.
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| Sometimes I wish things hadn't changed.
Sometimes I wish the memories didn't come flooding back.
Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if things had turned out differently.
Sometimes I wish it could all be forgotten.
And yet, I don't, because those few precious memories are worth it...even with all the baggage.
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